His smile makes everything inside of me melt. The smoothness of his face draws me closer to him than any sexual connection ever could. The curve of his hips that go to his pelvis makes my desire for him grow stronger by the second. When he kisses me I feel like the only girl in the world. His hugs can cheer me up faster than any narcotic. When he holds my hand I feel special. When he picks me up I don’t feel like a fat ass I feel light like a feather because he can do it with such ease. When he holds me I know I’m the only one he’s thinkin about in that moment because he’s the only one I think about ever. His eyes are strong eyes he might look stoned all the time, but if you look at his actual eyes you see strength and all the pain he’s been through. His arms and legs are strong. He’s not built like Ronny from Jersey Shore but he’s got muscle tone and it’s sexy. His butt isn’t huuugeeee and it doesn’t stick out very far but he has a nice butt. He just doesn’t wear jeans that accentuate it. His feet are larger than mine and they make mine look like a little girl’s, same with his hands. His nose has lumps from when it got broken, but they’re adorable. He makes me melt with every word he says and he always knows how to make me happy. He makes me feel like the happiest prettiest smartest girl in the world. I don’t want anyone else, and I know he means it when he says forever because he’s genuine. I love him with my soul and my heart he means so much to me (: <3
So, my fuckking cat’s gone. Like gone. I thought it was safe where it was but it wasn’t. I’m so pissed. Jeff moved out cuz his shit was gettin stolen too. Now he’s living somewhere much better. But it puts him farther away from me ): but oh well I’m glad he’s somewhere better I hope his friends follow because he needs friends and they’re better off here too. I love him so much and I hate that all this drama is in our life. I wish we could just like be just us and escape it all. I wish things were different but they aren’t. I miss my kitty and I fuckking am soooo mad about this. But I still have Ciara and I presume we are gettin her to live here and she will be safe here unlike what we thought about the last place. It will all get better soon I hope. I love him so much.
I know I’m in love because everytime I look at him I don’t see anyone else but the man I want to spend the rest of my life with. I see an infinite amount of tomorrows, I love you’s, goodnight’s, and hello’s. I get giddy everytime he looks my way and when he stares into my eyes my heart melts. He’s the only one in this world who truly understands me. He accepts me and all of my flaws. He loves everything about me and he makes me feel like the happiest girl in the world. He makes me feel like the only girl in the world. He’s so beautiful, perfect, and respectful. He’s everything I’ve ever wanted and more. He’s everything I could ever dream of having. I don’t want to know where I would be without him. He’s my favorite boyfriend, my favorite cuddle buddy, my favorite squish. I love him with all of my heart. He’s perfect. He treats me so good. I knew from day one I wanted to spend the rest of my life with him because he’s legitimately perfect. I don’t want to be with anyone else for the rest of my life and he wants it too. He loves me, and he shows me and proves it to me, and tells me every day. I love Jeffery Allen Coffin, forever. Legit forever. His forever is all that I need<3
Boyfriends and fighting together do not equal good things. Now he won’t purchase my alcohol because I missed out on a legit time to get it because of what we fought about. I feel like he’s trying to punish me forever instead of letting go of the problem. I wish he would forgive me completely but I understand why he’s mad. I fuckked up. And I’m an addict. I just wish everything would be okay again and be normal. I wish our relationship was acceptable. Sometimes I really hate my life.
I feel like until you are living and in a fully commited relationship with your partner you are forever alone on this trip we call life. It’s one thing to be in love, but what’s love without commitment? True commitment involves seeing someone multiple times a day, waking up to them in the morning, and going to bed to them at night. They must fill up your soul and make you feel as one. And when your love is strong enough it will transfer into another being that is a little bit her and a little bit you. Who would be my Lucy and my Kiefer. And when you love each other that much that you can love another part of both of you together, then you have found your place on Earth. Love, love, love is all ya need. <3